One-Arm
Mikko Koivunalho

The cold wind was bringing with it more and more snow. The Holt Halfhill was
covered with a thick bed of snow and the world was all white. Hunting parties
were out all the time, and in searching for the game they went further and
further away from the Holt. The immediate surroundings were only used by
trappers in order to preserve the game at normal amounts just in case the
hunting would go really bad and famine threatened.
More than half of the whole tribe were away on hunting parties
and those left were doing a full-time job in trying to take care of everything
at the Holt. Especially keeping the cubs out of the bitter wind inside warm dens
seemed an overwhelming hardship at times as every once in a while when the storm
abated, and sometimes even during it, a herd of anxious cubs swarmed outside to
play in the snow and elders had to crawl out to watch for them.
And as if their number wasn't great enough, two females were
pregnant and ready to drop their fawns in a few handful of days.
Foxeye yawned tiredly and rose up a bit to rest her back on the brim of the
sleeping level. The furs weighted heavily and she carefully pulled herself at
least partly out of them. The cool air even inside the den bit her face and
uncovered hands. It was dark and still.
Now, in a more comfortable position she glanced at her mates
sleeping on her both sides. Full of anticipation she stroked her big belly
knowing that she wouldn't have to wait much longer.
Suddenly her fingers touched another hand. Surprised she looked
at her left hand side and met Shortpine's adoring eyes.
"Bright morning, lifemate", he whispered while trying her belly
through her clothes.
Foxeye smiled and slowly crawled out under the furs and over his
legs and sat on the edge of their sleeping level. Shortpine bent down and
lowered his head against her stomach.
Wait. You can feel more... , she said and started to pull
open the strings of her leathers.
No, lifemate! It's too cold!
She looked back at her caring lover. Sweet mate, it's never
too cold when you are with me. Feel our cub!
She bared her chest and stomach, and Shortpine nestled against
her pressing his right ear childishly to her belly hoping to hear anything at
all from her womb.
Our cub... , Shortpine sent, How our lives will change I can
only wonder...
But it already has , she laughed quietly and lifted his head.
Or do you claim this makes no difference?
It does! It does! His eyes were laughing. I'll show you
how it'll be very soon. He sent her an image of all three of them together.
They were walking, sitting outside of Halfhill, playing with their newborn; she
was sitting between her lifemates, nursing their infant; encompassed by the new-
found bliss of parenthood.
But Foxeye's smile faded. Shortpine looked at her in wonder.
What is the matter? He raised his hand on her shoulder.
Quietly she stared down at her small breasts. I'm afraid... I
have not told you... I think I can't feed it.
She raised her sad eyes to meet his questioning and troubled.
I'm so young, Shortpine, I'm not ready...
He embraced her passionately. Oh my love, oh High Ones, why
you have kept this a secret, and burdened yourself needlessly? There's no need
to worry. You know that many others would gladly feed the cub.
But then I can't it hold myself...
Don't be silly. Of course you can. We'll hold it
together.
He pulled apart and smiling touched lightly her other breast.
Besides, at least I am sure they will grow soon.
She smiled back, seemingly eased though still with a shade of
sadness.
I just thought, have you asked Deerstorm? Maybe she could do
something to help.
I haven't even thought about it! Thank you, my friend! This
time it was she who pulled them together and didn't let go until suddenly
feeling the touch of a third pair of hands on her shoulders pulling her
backward.
"Cone!" she exclaimed.
Leaving Shortpine sitting she fell on top of Cone. Her head
resting against his chest Cone reached to try her belly as well.
"How long?" he asked impatiently while stroking her stomach with
long gentle moves.
"If I recall correctly, only yesterday when we went to sleep, I
told you Deerstorm predicted a handful of days. So that would make about seven
days today. Must you ask it every morning, every evening, many times a day?"
She turned slowly and clumsily around to face him and lowered
herself on his chest and stomach in a way that her own big belly stayed between
his legs feeling only very little pressure.
"Oh yes, I have to. You see, I couldn't bear even the thought of
missing the birth." He closed his eyes and passionately wrapped his hands around
her.
Shortpine stood up smiling and mused by himself while watching
his lifemates embracing each other. He turned to leave, "Pleasant moments. I'll
go get something to eat."
On the doorway he turned around to remind Foxeye again of the
cold air and was relieved when he saw Cone pulling the heavy furs on them.
Pushing aside the leathers on the doorway he disappeared to the snow and
cold.
Soon the leather barrier on the doorway moved aside again
letting in a swift cold breeze and an elf. Cone and Foxeye turned surprised but
it wasn't Shortpine coming back earlier than they expected but another elf.
Talon lowered his hood. "Sorry to disturb your pleasure but,
Cone, have you forgotten you were supposed to come hunting with us?"
Cone stared at him for a while surprised. "I'm sorry, I forgot!
I'll be with you in a moment!"
Trying to hurry, as difficult it was for her, Foxeye crawled off
him, and Cone nearly jumped out of the furs to confirm his regret to Talon
already disappearing behind the wall of the doorway.
"I forgot entirely!" he bawled while pulling on his warm snow-
time leathers. "But it shouldn't take longer a half hand of days! So I'll be
here when your time comes!"
Foxeye had put on her clothes at the time Cone had dressed up
cap-a-pie and covered in furs. He took his bow and quiver and Foxeye handed him
his spear. After a short hug he was ready. "Stay in warm, my love! I'll be back
as soon as I can."
He turned to leave when Foxeye pulled him back by his shoulder
and leaned over her belly against him. "And you, lifemate, find what you seek so
you'll have what you think you need." And she continued by sending, her eyes
sparkling in the half dark, Take your name now! I'll wait for you together
with Shortpine and our cub.
Cone disappeared behind the curve in the tunnel and Foxeye felt
the sudden wind on her face. Though it lasted only for a while, she crawled back
under the furs to wait for Shortpine.
He soon returned with a few strips of dried meat to gather
strength till the hunters would bring fresh meat. After they had eaten Shortpine
helped Foxeye to pull on all the heavy furs. When she was covered all over they
stepped outside to the cold and snow.
Shortpine went to his own businesses, to see if he could go on a
short hunt or help to check the traps for smaller game. Foxeye wandered around
her back arched by the weight of her belly, seeing what others what were doing
and being happy that nobody expected her to do anything.
"Bright and white morning!" she heard from behind her.
Turning around she saw Longarrow chuckling and beckoning her.
Longarrow had a big belly as well. She was bearing her Recognized lifemate
Bluesky's cub. It would be their second, first was Shortpine.
"Morning, mother", Foxeye answered. She had been orphaned very
young and had never had anyone whom truly call mother. But some time after she
and Shortpine had become lovemates his mother had also become much closer to her
and had taken her as part of her family. She finally had the mother she had
longed for. It was pleasing to Longarrow to have a daughter, too, and their
moments together were blissful. Their pregnancy had now brought them even more
closer.
"Why don't you come inside to warm?" Longarrow asked and entered
first into her and Bluesky's den. "How is Shortpine today?"
"Just fine."
They sat down on the fur covered sleeping level.
"You mean nervous and over-caring, of course?" the older female
laughed.
"Yes, of course", she giggled. "He can't help it, I
suppose."
"Bluesky is just the same."
Foxeye stood up and walked around silently.
"What is the matter, daughter? You seem nervous."
"I'm afraid", she said to the cold dirt wall.
"About giving birth?"
"Yes", she finally answered and turned to look at her
mother.
Longarrow sat motionless and silent, holding her hands on her
big stomach, yet not expressionless. "It's only natural. So did I after Bluesky
and I Recognized. You are young, younger than I was then, I recall. But elfin
births are always easy. Thank Timmain for that."
"I do. It is not that I fear..."
"But...?"
"But what will happen afterwards, especially with my lifemates.
Shortpine is all and well but I've never seen Cone quite like he is now.
Sometimes he seems as if he has lost all his good humour and wits."
"It is difficult for you to notice such, being so much in love
with him. He went again today to hunt so he'd finally get his adult name, didn't
he?"
Foxeye nodded.
"I think he is troubled because you are now an adult and he
still isn't. I know it doesn't mean much to you but to him it does. I remember
how much it meant to me but Bluesky hardly noticed his growing up, I think."
Foxeye smiled while listening to her. "Maybe you are right. I
hope Cone gets his name this time."
"I hope so, too."
Longarrow bent down on the furs while Foxeye walked out.
Pondering over Cone she made her way through the deep snow to see the healer.
Now she noticed that she had forgotten to tell Longarrow that Cone also had not
yet found his soulname. Maybe that was part of it, she wondered while making her
way throw the snowdrifts to Deerstorm's den.
"Deerstorm! Fangslayer!" she yelled from the doorway. But there
was no one inside. She would have to go looking for her. But first she rested a
bit on the nicely stretched out winter furs in their den. Stroking her belly she
gasped for air. It really surprised her how weak and vulnerable she had become.
Now she remembered all those warnings at which she had laughed before, the
warnings she had received at the time when she had first let the word go round
that she was going to pup.
Whitecold was indeed no time to breed! She wrapped her leathers
tighter around her and walked out. Fortunately, there was hardly no breeze
today. Glancing around she tried to find Deerstorm but the few elves on the
common yard were either cubs throwing snowballs at each other or elders who were
watching after them or had joined the fun themselves. A few groups were also
gathered at the den entrances.
She could've sent for her of course, but why bother her with
such a little worry. She made her way to the other side of the common yard and
stopped at the bank of the stream. It was frozen solid, of course. The ice was
clear with very little snow on it. She stepped on the ice and stamped with her
feet just to make sure it was strong enough, as if she wouldn't have known,
having walked there many times during the whitecold.
Foxeye took happily a few steps up and down the stream until
suddenly her feet disappeared under her and she fell on her face on the smooth
ice. It didn't feel like much; falling down was not so unusual and her leathers
had softened the fall. She turned around and scrambled to her feet.
It was only then the pain reached her. She stroked her belly in
vain to try to stop it and finally realized her stomach had taken most of the
fall on it. She tumbled on the bank and screamed in agony both in mind and voice
before losing her consciousness.
In only a few moments elves and wolves were gathering around
her. The wolves licked her face and when that didn't seem to help one of the
cubs rubbed snow on her cheeks. She screamed and opened her eyes.
Deerstorm! Please, I fell... on my belly! she sent and
stroked her stomach desperately screaming her pain away. Her vision blurred and
she couldn't recognize Two Wolves and Stringsong who picked her up and carried
away. Nearly half of the tribe were with her, some holding her hands, a few
trying to calm her by sending peaceful thoughts into her mind to block away the
pain.
She was carried into her den and lowered on the furs. Soon
Deerstorm arrived, panting and face covered in sweat. "Everyone, leave!" she
yelled while kneeling beside Foxeye. "Stringsong, you stay here! Where are her
lifemates Shortpine and Cone?"
Deerstorm heard Stringsong and others saying something but
couldn't make anything out of it as she already falling into a healer's trance.
Her hands moved gently from Foxeye's brow to her chest and stomach. She pressed
her hands against her skin and pushed through it with her powers to search for
her broken tissue. Penetrating ever deeper she finally reached her womb. Within
there was tiny little being, inside Foxeye.
The knowledge that she had never healed a pregnant mother
before, and certainly not an unborn baby, made it only more horrifying for her
when she began examining the child. It was badly hurt and bruised. But before
she would turn her attention entirely toward it she would have to search those
channels through which the pain reached Foxeye and block them so the mother at
least could rest in peace.
Her face was covered in sweat. Finally she broke off panting,
her face twisted in agony. "Her baby, Stringsong... its arm is broken!"
"High Ones, no!" he shouted. "Can't you help it?"
But she could only look at him sadly and shake her head. "I can
only do so little", she whispered but he didn't hear.
"Then, how is Foxeye?" he asked.
"She doesn't know. But her pains are not yet past. I fear she
will have to give birth soon, and painfully".
A familiar sending reached them; chief Freefoot was coming. He
ordered a few elves outside to set a fire so they could boil water and make warm
broth for Foxeye. Freefoot listened quietly as Deerstorm explained what had
happened. He then sent two Wolfriders to go after Shortpine's hunting party to
bring him back so he could comfort his mate. Meanwhile Longarrow and Bluesky,
Foxeye's chosen parents came to her as well.
Later they woke Foxeye up from her half-sleep to force her eat a
little of the warm broth. Then Shortpine arrived. He had run the whole way back
after receiving the sending which told him what had happened. Foxeye got visibly
better having seen him. But when she asked Deerstorm of her condition, the quiet
reply and warning of the presumable birthing soon made her wonder. Fortunately
Shortpine's strokes on her hair and face and Longarrow's kind words and
endlessly patient smile made her again forget the trouble. She only wished that
Cone could be there but he was too far away on his own hunting party to be
reached.
When night came, she was already feeling much better. Deerstorm
had gone to sleep in her den but Stringsong remained with Shortpine, Longarrow
and Foxeye. Two Wolfriders were outside taking care of the fire in case it would
be needed again. After Deerstorm's final touch on her, Foxeye had been sleeping
well.
Suddenly they all four awoke to Foxeye's scream through sleep.
"Shortpine, Shortpine!" she yelled still half asleep and reached desperately for
him. "The pain... I must be dropping the cub now!" Longarrow laid her palm on
Foxeye's brow to calm her while Shortpine and Stringsong were sending together
to Deerstorm.
Deerstorm rushed to them and while running past commanded the
ones who were tending the fire to begin heating water. It would be needed
soon.
She ran straight to Foxeye's side to start breaking her pangs.
Foxeye tried to rise and move herself into a proper birthing position to help
the pull of the world do its part but the healer pushed the exhausted mother
back on the furs fearing that she couldn't hold herself up during the birthing
and ensured her that it would be just as easy with she helping.
Aided by Deerstorm Foxeye started to push to make her fawn come
out. Meanwhile, Stringsong brought closer the grease lamp. But soon, to her
horror, Deerstorm saw a stream of blood coming from inside of Foxeye. She then
commanded Shortpine to go wake up Freefoot so he would not have to see what was
happening. Freefoot would also be needed very soon in a most unfortunate
task.
"Careful now, you're doing just fine," she spoke to Foxeye while
easing her pangs. She and Stringsong knew what had to be done and Foxeye would
be too exhausted to do anything, but it was Longarrow for whom she feared. How
would she react?
"Oh, Timmain," Stringsong whispered when seeing the amount of
birth-blood. Finally the hot water was brought to them and he used it to wash
away the blood and to warm Foxeye. The cold winds entered the den once again
when water bearers walked away.
Foxeye's cub was nearly halfway out of the womb. But when
Deerstorm had helped out its head the terrible truth presented itself: the cub's
right arm was twisted, broken. "Just a little more!" Deerstorm urged. Foxeye
pushed again and finally the little legs appeared from inside her. "It's done,"
Deerstorm sighed after cutting its umbilical cord.
"You did it. All is well," Longarrow whispered to Foxeye.
Fondling her cheek she continued, "You can sleep now, my daughter. You have
surely deserved it." Foxeye smiled and slowly closed her eyes waiting for
Deerstorm to lift the cub on her.
But she didn't. Deerstorm? Foxeye sent.
Then Longarrow bent down against her. "It would be better if you
didn't hold the cub. It is injured."
"Injured?" Foxeye opened her eyes and tried to get up.
But Longarrow pressed her down. "Do not, my daughter! The cub
cannot survive. It is The Way! And you live."
Foxeye ceased struggling. She knew The Way, or at least had
always claimed to know. She snuggled against Longarrow who wrapped her hands
around her. It was so cold and only she offered any warmth. Foxeye pressed
tighter against her and felt her big belly, and somehow that comforted her. And
Longarrow felt warm and heavy tears falling on her skin.
Deerstorm and Stringsong left them alone and moved quietly to
the tunnel towards the doorway. Then Freefoot came in, having after quite a
trouble managed to leave Shortpine outside. How is it? he asked.
Deerstorm answered, A lot of blood but she is now alright. But
the cub... has a broken right arm.
Freefoot bent down his head. And you can't...?
My chief, forgive me.
Deerstorm, it is no-one's fault, he answered
compassionately.
She passed him the warm bundle which held in it the greatest
wonder of all.
Why must I be the one to do this, he thought.
Why must I be chief. Very slowly he pulled his stone-axe off from
his belt. Deerstorm and Stringsong turned around. Just then Shortpine entered.
He couldn't have waited any longer but wanted to see his lifemate and cub. After
first sensing the relief in the den he couldn't understand the sudden change to
coldness and anxiety, and stepped in nervously.
Both Freefoot and Shortpine froze. "What are you... doing?"
Shortpine finally managed to ask, still staring at the raised axe.
"Shortpine, leave!" Freefoot commanded calmly.
What are you doing? he yelled through his sending.
Leave! The chief's powerful and dominating sending pounded
in his head but he walked to them.
Stringsong stepped in front of him. "Shortpine, the cub is
injured, beyond healing. We have to kill it." And just as quickly understanding
how blunt his words had been he added, "To give it a merciful death."
Shortpine only stared, his mouth open. "Please, let me see!"
Freefoot hesitated, then handed the bundle to him.
Shortpine carefully unwrapped it. A tiny girl appeared. She
quietly stared at him. Then he noticed that her right arm was indeed broken. It
hung dead at her side. Deerstorm had made the pain of the injury subside but
couldn't fix it.
Freefoot took the bundle briskly from Shortpine's arms and the
cub started to wail. We have to do it, Shortpine. Such a cub could never
survive.
But... She is strong. Look at her! Listen to her!
How could she ever hunt? Stringsong broke in. Or defend
herself?
It is only merciful, and it is The Way. Wolves do it, so must
we, concluded Freefoot.
It was the last thing he said which made Shortpine's anger rose.
He had never felt a strong closeness towards the wolves, not even to his own
wolf-friend. But we are not wolves! His strong sending battered the three of
them. You would kill her just because she isn't like us! But it isn't her
fault!
It was a challenge. Freefoot knew that but wondered if Shortpine
also realized what he had done. Now the chief of the Wolfriders would have to
answer by forcing his chief's sending upon him.
But Shortpine snatched the crying bundle away from him and run
out of the den. Freefoot, Deerstorm and Stringsong were too surprised to even
follow him. Finally Freefoot hurried outside but only saw Shortpine disappearing
at the other side of the common yard.
The moons were shining and shedding their light on the snow.
Wind blew snow on his face.
Shortpine, come back! We have no other choice. She couldn't
survive.
He didn't even wait for an answer but Shortpine sent from behind
the bushes near the stream. She would! She is strong!
She is injured, and she can never heal. It would only cause
her constant misery.
More than killing her and never letting her know what life
could have been for her?
She can't hunt for herself and she...
She can hunt with a spear. You only need one hand for
that.
Shortpine! We are Wolfriders! We follow the wolves'
ways!
The Way has been changed before! We are not wolves!
Shortpine sent with a fury Freefoot couldn't recall having met before. And he
was right, The Way had been changed before. Rahnee had changed it, so had Two-
Spear and Huntress Skyfire. Freefoot pondered for a long time.
Then Shortpine sent again, Please, my chief, I beg you.
And now he speaks like a cub again, Freefoot
thought. Was Shortpine's anger gone already? What am I to do
now?
Two days and one night later the Wolfriders and their wolves were gathering
on the top of Halfhill. All those who were presently at the Holt were there.
They assembled in a circle and raised a howl at the stars and the two moons.
Freefoot stepped in the middle and spoke, "Tribemates, another
Wolfrider has been born amongst us. Come and show us!" he beckoned Shortpine and
Foxeye.
Shortpine was holding the small bundle. Foxeye still looked
tired and sick as she hadn't recovered completely yet. Freefoot took the bundle
and lifted it up while turning around for everyone to see. Then he gave it back
to Shortpine.
Shortpine started to speak. "This is our daughter. Her other
sire is on a hunt now." Then he opened the other end of the bundle presenting
the head and face of her daughter. He walked around in the circle so everyone
could take a good look. He then continued, "Though her life has not started
well, she is strong and healthy. Fate was hard on her but so far she has proved
her worth."
Shortpine unwrapped the leather hoping for the best, and then
lifted the one-armed naked cub in the air. Her other arm was completely missing,
Deerstorm had gone through a true hardship when she had had to work against her
healer's instincts to simultaneously remove her right hand and repair the
terrible wound.
Freefoot had been right when warning him that he might very well
indeed get the anger of many Wolfriders upon him. He could hear around him many
doubting words and unpleasant murmurs. He didn't see it but even Foxeye watched
with a quiet disapproval.
"She will be a strong fighter and a sly hunter!" he added but it
didn't seem to help. It was the chief's decision but the tribe could still
decide not to accept it.
Freefoot watched quietly what was happening. He knew he should
have killed the cub right when it had been born. That was the wolves way. But
The Wolfrider Way could differ, as it had done before, from it. He would have to
speak now or watch the tribe taking matters to their own hands. Remembering his
promise to Shortpine he stepped forward.
"Quiet you all!" he shouted. His raising voice was uncommon
enough to get the attention. "This cub has been born a Wolfrider. Many a
Wolfrider during years gone have been injured as well, too badly to be healed
completely, or who could not have healed by themselves. So has this cub been
injured. But she is not to be blamed. The only one that could be blamed, if we
chose to do so, would be the healer who could not help her."
It was a terrible thing to say, and he had to watch as Deerstorm
bent down her head. How could he ever appease her? Would she ever forgive
him?
The murmur began to quiet down. He could only hope that they had
accepted this. He turned to Shortpine. "What is her name?"
"One-Arm," he answered shortly.
Freefoot turned again to face his tribe. "Like food when there
is hunger, so is One-Arm welcome to the tribe!"
It was decided.
Shortpine and Foxeye turned to leave the middle of the circle
with the cub now wrapped up again. Their smiles, especially Shortpine's, did not
go unnoticed.
But without warning Freefoot took hold of Shortpine's shoulder
and pulled him back. "We also have another new Wolfrider, one who has so
suddenly grown up and become an adult. His name is Waybender!"
Shortpine looked more than a little amazed. Unexpected
certainly, what had he done to deserve to become an adult? He remembered how
Foxeye, before known as Warmstone, had gotten her adult name. It had happened
during a hunt. But he would have to ask from Freefoot what he done to make him
so grown-up.
Everyone started to howl or repeat his and One-Arm's name. But
he just couldn't understand what they knew and he didn't. Finally, after having
seen Foxeye joined the howl, he joined too.
Soon the whole tribe returned to their dens for it was far too
cold for a proper howl.
Foxeye and Waybender and One-Arm, too, went to theirs.
"Wonder what Cone will look like when he learns what we've done
during his absence?" he said and laughed.
"You seem amused, my love." she answered with an unmistakably
cool tone. "He at least would not have gone against The Way."
"I don't understand you. I am happy for what has happened."
She didn't answer but bared her other breast to feed One-Arm.
There was a little milk in her dugs now but she didn't know how long it would
last.
Even after the feeding she pushed away Waybender's caressing
hand and turned her back on him.
Maybe it was the cub, he thought, and nervousness and her poor
condition which made her act this way. Having pulled the furs on her and himself
he soon fell asleep, but this time only embracing the fur and not her.

This is entirely a work of fiction. All characters and events portrayed here are
entirely fictitious. All resemblance to factual people or events is purely
coincidental.
One-Arm
Elfquest fan-fiction, Copyright © 1996 Mikko Koivunalho, Internet:
mikkoi@utu.fi
Elfquest ®, its characters, situations, logos, and their distinctive
likenesses are trademarks and © Copyright of WaRP Graphics, Inc. All Rights
Reserved Worldwide.
This story is inspired by Elfquest. I am highly grateful to Wendy and Richard
Pini, the creators of Elfquest.
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